Saturday, July 25, 2015

God's Calling?

We all have a calling or a path God has set for us we just have to look for it sometimes in this crazy world. Today I am going to share my journey on how I found my calling and what steps I took.

First I looked at the bible and saw what it called us as Christians to do. I then took those items that jumped at me either because of an interest or feeling as though God pasted it in my mind where I could never shake it. For me what stood out was teaching, especially his word, and even though it is not something we are necessarily regularly called to do I have felt the need to provide wholesome food for people.

Once these topics stuck (teaching being one that has been in my soul since around 4th grade) I prayed about them and asked what God wanted me to do with these paths and how they could intertwine and still be productive. After a while I have seen through prayers that I can teach from my farm and show our next generation about God's word, his creation and his creatures. Whilst still giving them an education that will help them communicate what they have learned to the rest of the world.

I continually pray about my path in this world and just like the world it is always changing and building. Like I said I have been called to teach since 4th grade and now I am taking teaching and widening it to more unusual teaching matters like farming. And who knows day by day I feel as though adopting or fostering children is going to be a huge part of my life.

This was my journey and it's still going but here are some steps to start yours:

  1. Read your bible
  2. Are there any people, jobs, words or verses that jump out to you? (example: teach, herdProverbs 27:23-27)
  3. Pray, ask God why those verses or words ect...
  4. Look at your hobbies, skills and interest. How do they connect with everything?
  5. Pray for guidance to keep your choices in a field of work good in God's eyes
  6. Start taking steps or jump right in to make your calling happen.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015


I have been thinking a lot about the whole gay marriage debacle and how churches, bakeries and other entities are being forced to participate. Yes baking a cake for your "wedding" is participating and sitting in the pews is participating. This is something everyone needs to know! I understand not everyone is a Christian I get it but look at a christian for a moment and just think... by forcing that person sitting across from you to bake a cake may be tossing their eternity out the window... I know it's harsh but it's true. I love people and I can't stop you from making bad decisions but don't force me or anyone else to make the decision you want them to make. You want to be an independent free thinker who has the rights to live as they want but as you go down your path don't destroy mine. If you want everyone around you to be nude move to a nudist colony this is just an example but find people who want what you want live together but don't change what I have to do. Evil and good don't mix and as Christians we are not supposed to associate with evil but that doesn't mean I wont help you, or pray for you I love everyone and hope that one day we all will be ready :)

I Wish We'd All Been Ready – DC Talk

Monday, June 22, 2015

My 4-H Story....

   Well If you have ever been in 4-H or FFA you have probably heard of a record book if not then I'll go into a little detail. A record book helps to keep track of your work and our animals progress up until fair time. If you show through FFA or 4-H this is a mandatory item to have completed within a certain time before fair time. Friday was the end of my mandatory time period on which day my 4-H group had a meeting to help finish record books...

   This meeting was not set up very well though. The address and time I had been given were wrong which then made it to where I am now barred from participating in my local county fair this fall. While this is aggravating I still have opportunities to participate in other shows outside of 4-H (which I will no longer support).  For the record book however I did have to write a story about my experience so I figured I could share it with you guys.

Proverbs 27:23 ESV “Know well the condition of your flocks,
and give attention to your herds”

My 4-H Story
       I have always had a passion for animals and knowing how the animals that produced my food and other products were treated. This led me to wanting to raise my own animals but having not raised anything more than dogs I decided I needed help from an experienced group that has worked with animals; this brought me to joining my local 4-H. Joining 4-H at 17 doesn’t appear to be a common practice but for me 4-H fit what I needed more than FFA or other groups.

One of my big passions is these animals and having them as close to their natural diets and habitats as I can while still keeping them tame and healthy. My passion is also found in God’s work and helping people build better lives. This brings me to my future plans, my plan is to take my new found knowledge of agriculture and livestock, and take it to the missionary field where I can help communities build a new way of life.

Being my first year in 4-H and going to the fair I have yet to complete any projects. That said I have set many goals for myself this first year. These goals include: learning to document, learning to care for and show a goat, and increase my physical health as to better care for the animals. If I were to restart my current project I would get my animal sooner so that I had longer to work with her before fair. In addition I would also update my records more often so that I would have more detailed account of my project.

The main skills I have obtained from this project are showmanship, and hoof care. These skills were brought to me through my cousin Bethanny whom has been showing for 12+ years and one of my fellow members Lydon. One aspect that was entirely new to me was getting a 4-H loan. I went through a local bank where I explained what I would be spending the money on (animal, feed, etc.), then I had to go through and estimate as to how much money I would need to start the project and feed her until January where my loan would then need to be paid back in full.

Leadership and citizen ship are very important aspects of everyday life. Citizenship is all about helping your community to grow and become better. Whether it’s showing support for one another by putting flags up at the cemetery or gathering people together at festivals it helps to raise up the community. When a community is able to come together as one we can do amazing things and even if it is volunteer work it can open up doors for you! Leadership is a skill not many have but in times when you need help it is always great to have someone that can lead you and let you know what needs to be done.

I don’t really see that it has, there have not been many opportunities presented through my local group to be a leader or help my community. Most work that I have done has been through me being in my community. I have contributed to my community by helping set up the fall festival, laying flags at the cemetery, and while in school I often helped arrange activities and classes for the younger students.

In all honesty I have not had much support from leaders, my family and fellow 4-H members have been the main contributors to experiences I have had in 4-H. One place it has had an impact on me is my career goals as I said above I plan to take my new knowledge and apply it in the missionary field. All in all I have not been part of the group long enough to know what being a 4-H member is all about, but I hope that over time I find it more valuable.

Monday, June 15, 2015

A Year

If you have read some of my past posts you have probably seen me say that I wanted to become a teacher. This is no longer true and I want to guide you through my year long journey of how I found the path God created for me. God can do many great things and sometimes we only give him parts of our lives, but God created your life and he wants to be part of everything you do! This has became very prominent to me and for the past few months I have been asking God to take every part of my life and use it for his glory wether it's my work, my health, my friendships, everything. Asking for guidance in small things like what to go to school for seems petty due to all the people who need so much more but God loves everyone so much that where ever they are and whatever their situation he wants to give them the help they ask for.

A Year in Standstill: 

June 3rd 2014 I was sitting with my fellow high school seniors discussing what song we wanted played as we left the ceremony that afternoon, as my parents were at home packing up the last suit case as we prepared to move to California. In just one week I would be going on the best road trip ever with those whom I thought were my true friends. I was as happy as I could be I was about to start my life and go to college and start a career. In just 2 weeks I was going to be in my brand new house, and starting college in 3 months.

Everything was going according to plan until June 5th.... June 5th as my parents headed down to California from Washington with a truck full of all our belongings we received a phone call saying that the seller of our home no longer wanted to move out and that we would have to find a different house. Over a month later we finally found a house to live in. Once we moved in I realized no one was really talking to me they weren't responding to any messages and they didn't even let me know what was going on when I knew some serious things were happening which is why I brought them to California for the 2 weeks I could. I still don't know what has happened over a year later exactly whats happening besides one of them was getting married.

After this I started Praying to God for friendship because my parents kept wanting me to make friends but by the time August came around I realized I didn't need a friendship then I needed to really focus on my relationship with God. That's when I really started to dedicate bible time and looking through the bible anytime I was confused about something. By December I started giving my life to Christ started looking at churches and doing volunteer work for the town festivals. I had yet to start college because they wanted to charge out of state tuition since I had not yet lived here for a year. Now that I look at this though I am very glad I didn't start because I still wasn't sure what I REALLY wanted to do with my life. I knew I wanted to teach in some form but I wanted to really change somethings in the world and I also wanted God to be part of my career. I went through so many options my head was spinning.

I decided I just needed to leave it with God and do what I could right now. All I could do was start applying for jobs and hoping someone hired me. Living in a town where anyone under 20 is a minority it was definitely hard to find anyone who wanted to deal with an inexperienced 17 year old. Honestly my life was on hold for 11 months I wasted an entire year of my life contemplating everything. I felt as though that was all I would ever do but I knew that I was here for a reason and I had a long and very winding road ahead of me that God had created for me. Then something amazing happened all of my volunteer work from October brought me to a job in May. The person who was running the festival actually owned one of the places I had applied for and he had seen that I was a hard worker so he decided I was perfect for the job. When I went in for what I thought was a job interview it was actually him just getting me set up on a schedule and giving me my uniform.

Once I got that job my life has really gotten back on track God has given me the best coworkers. Ones in which I feel I am meant to guide back to God after they have had some unethical teachings in the name of Christ and were somewhat traumatized. Just last night as I was watching Pitch Perfect I really started thinking about college I don't know why it just hit me. With out even thinking I asked my mom if there were any jobs that involve christianity that didn't involve becoming a pastor. We started looking through all the job options and the second I saw missionary I knew.

Why I Want to be A Missionary: 

Like I said in the beginning I have always had a passion for teaching and I love to bring knowledge to those young and old. What better to teach then the word of God! Of course I would also be able to open the doors in the realm of language and education. I would also be able to help build, change and save a community a community of souls that might not have other wised heard the gospel of Christ! Missionary work does have it's dangers and it can put you in situations where your faith might be in question but if you make it out on the other side you are just that much stronger in your relationship with him. Most of my family has been in the military at one point or another and I love the thought of protecting others and serving but I want to help all those fighting against and help them get away from all the works of the devil and sins. "Only a real risk tests the quality of a belief". Theses are words to live by and what are we really risking saving others?

The Music In My Soul:

This Is The Time – Superchick has been my theme song for this year and I really do want to live like I will die tomorrow so I'm taking a chance and going for it. My family may think I am crazy or "it's to dangerous" or that I'm not ready. Will I really ever be ready though how can I prepare for what I am going to deal with out dealing with it? I want to experience this world and have even the tiniest effect in it. Save A Life – Manic Drive will be my song for a while I strive towards saving the lost souls in the world no matter the risk.

What's Next?

Well I am going to find a church that shares my views ASAP there will be no more excuses for not going and by the end of the year I want to be baptized so that I may be sent deeper in God's word. I am now looking through course catalogs to find my classes so that I can really go for this next chapter in my life. I can not even begin to explain how happy I am that I have found this career and that I can do it!  

My life right now

   Just thought I would send you all an update this morning my life has been full of ups and downs over the past month. At the beginning of may I was so excited that we finally had several goats and chickens but then towards the middle of the month our chickens unexpectedly started dying we lost 8 in the course of one week. 3 to being eaten by animals and 5 to coccidia which was heart breaking but all is good now and all are healthy. 

   Then May 18th sitting here home alone the phone rings and my fathers coworker thinking I am my mom tells me I need to come down to my dads work because he had been in a motorcycle after he realized who he was talking to he assured me that he was awake. It turns out that a truck was in the process of breaking down and in the attempt to get out of LA traffic he cut across 3 lanes of traffic at a 45* angle. In his attempt he cut off my father multiple times but at first my dad had noticed the truck. After being cut off yet again in the far right lane my dad moved to the shoulder to get around the truck where the truck proceeded directly in front of my father no blinkers or any warning. My father got hooked on the bumper of the truck where he broke is collar bone on impact and was spun backwards and thrown 15 feet into a cement wall where he fractured 2 vertebrate and 4 ribs.
   I thank God that 3 nurses and an EMT were in the vehicle behind them and were able to get him steady in case his back was in fact broken and an impossible 7 minutes in LA rush hour the ambulance arrived and took my father to the trauma center where unfortunately to trauma was about to start. When he arrived they had him in a back and neck brace laying flat on his back which made it hard to breathe due to his ribs. 5 hours later when my mom and granma finally made it to the hospital my dad was able to be sat up because none of the nurses or doctors were listening to him. 7 hours after being admitted my mom was able to beg the nurse to give him water or start intravenous fluids because he was becoming severely dehydrated. At 8 oclock the next morning 14 hours after the accident my dad was discharged because they were unable to do anything for him because we do not live in Los Angeles county. Thankfully my mom knew and orthopedic surgeon and was able to get him in the next day to make sure there wasn't anything wrong because we couldn't tell he was up and walking he just felt like a giant bruise. This is when we found out his injuries. after several weeks of trying to get his ribs healed my dad was able to get his shoulder and collar bone pinned back together June 1st. How ever we do know that God has been with us because June 8th my dad was able to return to work and June 14th he is starting to relearn how to drive since he doesn't have full motion in his left shoulder. One good thing did come out of this accident though he and my family have been re-evaluating their health. With this new found support I have lost almost a full pant size in the past 3 weeks which has been a goal of mine for a while. 

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Getting on track

Hi long time no see!

Since I have been gone I have done a lot of work on my homestead getting heaven view ranch up and running has been a big task. While I have been trying to get my ranch going though I have drifted away from the life style I wanted to create and make available to not only my self but others as well. And do to that drift I have not been feeling very well and my body has not been recuperating nearly as fast as it usually does. Which is not good when you are working with animals all day and then going to work in the evenings.

And I know I have made promises before about my weight loss and health but I never really had any support until now. Monday me and my friend C decided that if we didn't make major changes now that we would have major health issues forever and they would just keep getting worse. She is taking it a little farther than I am do to the fact she is older and has extra health issues along with weight. I am going grain free because I know that it triggers weight gain and discomfort for me. Along with this I am starting an unprocessed diet which means I am staying on the outside aisle of the store or items off my property. C on the other hand is doing a juice detox this week and then going on an unprocessed diet such as my self. We don't have weight goals our only goal now is to feel good and be healthy.

Not only do I have someone riding through this with me but I am asking God to help keep this in my heart so that I may have more days to share his love with the world. I am thankful God has given me the help I needed and the opportunity to workout with a meaning (which is basically anything that pertains to the farm). Not going to have much time to sit on my butt anymore so I am praying that with this rise in activity level I will excel in my weight loss journey.

I don't know why this is weighing on my mind so much but I feel this is really important to say.

If you have an eating disorder wether it anorexia or emotional eating please talk to someone. Let anyone that will listen know you can even email me I would love to help you out and get you to where you need to be!  

Monday, May 4, 2015

judment and caring

Personally I feel like a magnet for people that need guidance towards God and I appreciate the opportunities to help get people on track, but then I see things like "hate the sin not the sinner" "only God can judge" Luke 6:37 “Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven". These are the things that make me wonder if what I am doing is right when does caring and guidance become judgment? If you think about it you start to judge when you just don't care anymore. In order to guide someone down a difficult path you have to be there for them care for them and love them give them a better life then they had before they had a guide. Even if it takes years and they don't completely follow your guidance it's ok you haven;t failed. As long as you are giving them a way to get out of a current life style and encouraging them then you are doing more than most can say they have tried to do.

And even if you hate the sin and not the sinner you can not turn a blind eye and accept that sin. If you do this you don't help them strengthen their relationship with God all you do is leave them in the hole in which you found them. We are supposed to bring them up out of the hole and demolish that sin because when we take a sin out of one another's lives that is showing true love and compassion that we took the time and effort to show them how they can have a better and eternal life! Proverbs 3:5-6 says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." This verse really helped me to write this post as did God because I prayed before I wrote this and asked God to guide my mind to share with you his teachings and this could help you or someone you know to get out of a maze and on to a path God created just for you and he knows it leads to the best prize any one could ever be honored with.

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